Blogging can be frustrating, you know.
Because when you get deep deep deeeeep down in your heart– the place you sometimes don't care to admit is there– you wonder exactly why you are blogging. Well, at least I do.
As great as it is to know people are reading what I have to say, all about my adventures, etc, I find myself dissatisfied at times. Upset that I don't know how to grow a blog or get more followers. Upset that I feel "unpopular" or that I don't have enough to offer like what the many inspiring blogs or mommy blogs out there do. I know that it is selfish and wrong to think that way.
At those times I need to remind myself, Julie, this blog shouldn't be all about you. It should be about Him. Sure, sharing my memories will be great to look back on (and that's partly why I do blog), but in the end, shouldn't this little space on the Internet be about something more? About praise and glory going to our great God? About showing the world the light of Jesus? About inspiring others to follow Him?
It's a struggle, seeking the approval of followers when I should be seeking the approval of God. It's so hard to lose sight of that when, in a panic, I'm thinking of what I should post next or how I don't think it will be good enough, funny enough, clever enough for readers. But what if I just spoke the truth more often? Spoke to tell all about the Good News a little more often. Spoke to tell how this savior has changed my life.
This blog is all about my life. So, Jesus being the most integral part of my life, shouldn't I be using it to praise Him?
So after a lot of careful consideration, here's the answer to why I blog: I do this to share how Jesus shows Himself in my life. I don't have to be preaching everyday or sharing powerful stories like my testimony to do this. It can just be how I live my daily life according to Him. I'm not going to stop posting all my pictures from date nights or anything like that, but use them to show that I am happy. Happy because Jesus is in my life, and He has given me so many blessings that I show to all of you through this blog.
I've learned that all I can do here is pray. Pray that God takes this blog wherever it is supposed to go. If I'm only supposed to have so many followers, then so be it. I'm willing to accept that.
And I'm willing to just let God take the reigns on this one.